Let's see how this blog takes shape...My life these days is mostly baby, work, baby, husband, bed. There is a little dog and family/friends sprinkled in there but not a lot. Don't get me wrong though - I am thoroughly enjoying this new life.
We went to the park this weekend, a very enjoyable and successful family trip, and it reminded me that eventually our lives will get more mobile and interactive. Small step by small step. In the meantime I am trying to remember to just be with the baby and not rush him. He will walk soon enough and then he will walk for 90 more years. He has only a few short months to not walk. A few short months to gaze at us, coo, giggle and spit-up. Then it will be gone. It will be long gone and when I am worrying about the consequences of him driving and having sex, I will wish I had these days back again.
People always ask, "Does he sleep through the night?" No he doesn't. And I don't care. One day all too soon he will sleep through the night in his own bed whether or not I do anything about it. "Does he go to sleep in his crib with out being rocked (parented) to sleep?" No. I still get the delicious pleasure of rocking him, singing to him and holding him until he falls asleep in my arms. Someday soon we will read him books and tuck him into his toddler bed and leave the door cracked so a little light comes in and he doesn't have to be afraid of the dark. I can't wait for that time. His independence will amaze us and we will hold hands and smile at each other as we stand on the other side of his door. But for now, I get to nurse him, hold him, rock him to sleep and sing to him - why rush through that?
All of these questions, the books, and the blogs make us feel like, as mothers, we must always be doing something. That in order to be active involved parents of an infant we must always be solving these problems of sleeping, eating, and getting strong. They can make you forget to stop and just enjoy this small moment in time where your baby is just that - a baby. They can make you forget that you and your baby know, instinctively, how to do this.
Don't get me wrong - I read the books and the blogs and take the baby to Mommy & Me but today it is just a little too much. Today my baby and I are just going to be.
